Blog from 05

Ok so I read this book yesterday and it talked about ADD and ADHD which I have. And they talked about not having parents and teachers and friends telling us when we our younger that they are proud of us. Then they expect us to be good and do good in school and yet we don't get complements. Just a simple I'm proud of you can change how I feel. You see in my mind since I've had to deal with this for like 17 years I don't know how to act in certain situations and people expect you to act all proper and stuff but when u struggle with ADHD and ADD its very hard to act civil. Well thats because the schools do not teach us how to act. So we act out and misbehave we call out in class with out knowing it and we cann't help it. Its also tough because you struggle to keep friends and you have to fight through everyday just to make it. And when schools out the fight isn't over it goes on at your house with your parents yelling at you to clean your room and do your homework and to stop acting like a fool. The Fight is also in your head to you fight the voices of peers and there own thoughts and self talk. You see it would be nice if people could understand what its like to live in the mind of person with ADD and ADHD. Its tough because each day is a struggle to get things done and stay focused on what the task is at hand. And some people look at you funny because you stare and you take your time. You see we need order and we need to know whats going on when so we can prepare ourselves for it.